Day Five

Well Today I am going to tell you some personal things about me.
I have this crazy side of me that I battle completely in my mind. I have this desire to be completely good at everything I do. Which logically speaking not really possible, but I have had this as my goal in life since I was rejected by the youth group as being bad at everything because I was home schooled... So then and there I decided I was going to do my best to be good at everything... and it had taken 10 years for me to finally realize that although that is not a bad goal in life to have to strive for being good at things it cannot possible extend into every aspect of my life.
This all comes as a result of the fact that I had to quite my job that I do solely for extra spending money/vacation savings so it is not vital to our lives really but it was important to me to contribute to the family finances in that way... But I have not been good at the job since I started my employer was annoyed but she graciously tried to keep working with me but the truth is I am not able to preform the job. Simple done.... This may seem unimportant to you but the reality of the discoveries I have made about myself in this process have been eye opening to me and I am so proud of the choices I have made in this situation because it will make me the best mommy that I am because I can evaluate things more clearly. Second personally thing about me I don't have confidence in all the choices I make. So when I do I am growing and making myself a better person and better mom!